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| Workout of the Day at Trident (You can see me, nose to the ground, behind the #30 box) |
Been loving my crossfit workouts the past two weeks. Could it be because they have included lots of running? Probably.
Lots of shoulder work, rounds and reps of moves I really enjoy like push press, clean and jerks, toe to bars and kettle bell swings.
I feel awesome and strong when I do these things. I walk away sore and feeling accomplished.
And yet…
I am disappointed in my personal progress. I’m really trapped in the comparison game.
I read how many reps others have gotten in the Open — the crossfit bloggers I read — and I feel so weak.
One girl I know just started a few weeks ago and started OFF doing higher weights than me.
I’m not trying to be a body builder. But, I feel like it takes more effort for me to build muscle than a normal person. I’ve been back at Crossfit for three months now and I feel no real change. My arms still look completely untoned.
I couldn’t even get one rep in the Open last week (because the prescribed weight was too heavy so my reps didn’t count) — it’s very discouraging.
While I knew that I wasn’t signing up to win a thing when I entered the Open, it still puts a certain mentality in your head.
Competition.
I also wonder — am I missing something? Am I doing something wrong? I go 4-5 times a week — should I be doing other exercises (aside from the supplemental running I already add)?
I don’t know. Maybe my body is just used to working out and is resistant to changing form. After all, I’ve been doing these for years:
And I know I shouldn’t focus on this. I do crossfit because it makes me feel awesome — I love the variety, the intensity, the fun.
Even so, I’d like to have toned arms for all the work I put into them.
This has been a real whine-fest, hasn’t it? Just a moment to share my frustrations. Many many more important things in life but for this moment, I’m venting.